Damn I missed National PI day!
Well there is a lot going on but not much of it is overly pertinent to my health. I am going in for my last chemotherapy on Monday. Last chemotherapy before I take a chemoholiday. My mind is also trying to tell me not to stop now so I have to have a real hard decision to make by 10am on Monday. I’m leaning towards taking the break assuming my CT scan on the 28th says two of three things. Nothing has changed at all and there has been some regression by the cancer. If that’s the case how can a initial two week break not help regenerate the body? Some times I don’t really know what to do but I need to trust myself because I haven’t made it this far without making the right informed decision. Everyone who has been involved also thinks I need a break. I’ll let you all know on Monday.
In other news I have spoken with UPMC in Pittsburgh and they are just as interested in me as I am in them. I had to send all of my notes and scans out to them again, but I did it and I am waiting on a call back when they have looked over them. Basically if this surgeon thinks I am screwed then I am really screwed because he is one of the best out there. So fingers and toes are crossed. The whole thing would have to be done in steps and that is the tricky part. Collar bone and sternum first then everything else is whatever.
Mentally, I am doing so much better than I was a couple of weeks ago. I don’t have mood swings, my thought is a bit clearer, I’m back and writing, and reading a little before my head becomes discombobulated. All in all it turned around after I saw the therapist again. I think venting my issues and trying to sort through them helped quite a bit. I’m still a mess, but a bit better. I think when I get through the next CT scan things will quiet down a little…..assuming the scans are good.
The rehab I go to is OK. The goal is trying to limit the muscle pain around the tumors and loosening up the bad areas in my back and shoulder. The spot I’ve had in my left shoulder blade since the surgery in 2001 has flared up quite a bit since going. They don’t think there is anything they can do to help fix it. Everything else is a work in progress. We have been working on range of motion as of late and I don’t think there is an ounce of change.